Posts tagged ‘cancer’

November 20, 2009

Suicide

Not sure about why this happens to be an answer for anyone

It saddens me when I hear about people committing suicide.  I think that it should never be an option.  There is always a brighter day just around the corner from the dark day you have been going through. 

I know that we all know someone who has committed suicide and that is real sad. 

I want to address the fact that there are so many people alive that want to LIVE that have horrible diseases like Cancer, Leukemia, AIDS, etc.  These folks are fighting to LIVE not wanting to die or commit suicide.  It makes me think of my ex-wife who had breast cancer and fought to live and battled cancer only to recover fully, thank God.  She wanted to live and suicide wasn’t an option.  So we did something about it.  Not giving in!!!

There are also suicide bombers.  These people really take the cake in my sadness of heart.  I hope that they realize this is a horrific way of ending their lives and causing so much pain, hurt and anger to those whom they have murdered and SHAME to their families.

I hear about people committing suicide in the Army.  I think I’m ignorant in why people do that there in the Army, I’m sure it’s hard, but I reference back to my first sentence.

Holidays are coming up as well and I know that this is always a hard time for lots of folks, especially those who have lost loved ones recently or during this time of the year.  This will be my first Holiday season single in over 10+ years and it’s hard for me too.  If you have been divorced ever, you know it’s like losing a loved one.  The relationship is dead and gone and loss is there.  I will make it through however as my focus is not going to be on self, but on Him who created me.

This Scripture passage(1 John 5:1-12) I think addresses and comforts the believer.  I know it does me.  I know that He has overcome the world and so will we!  Amen!

1Everyone who believes that Jesus is the Christ is born of God, and everyone who loves the father loves his child as well. 2This is how we know that we love the children of God: by loving God and carrying out his commands. 3This is love for God: to obey his commands. And his commands are not burdensome, 4for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith. 5Who is it that overcomes the world? Only he who believes that Jesus is the Son of God.  6This is the one who came by water and blood—Jesus Christ. He did not come by water only, but by water and blood. And it is the Spirit who testifies, because the Spirit is the truth. 7For there are three that testify: 8the[a] Spirit, the water and the blood; and the three are in agreement. 9We accept man’s testimony, but God’s testimony is greater because it is the testimony of God, which he has given about his Son. 10Anyone who believes in the Son of God has this testimony in his heart. Anyone who does not believe God has made him out to be a liar, because he has not believed the testimony God has given about his Son. 11And this is the testimony: God has given us eternal life, and this life is in his Son. 12He who has the Son has life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have life.

I received a note once on a piece of paper that said, “You can’t appreciate the Sunshine, until you have walked through the darkness”   This statement is reality for me and in my life!  Life isn’t fair or perfect(this was never promised to us), but when we have Jesus, we have so much to be thankful for and so much work to do on earth and so much to give.  May this be your thoughts as you focus with me this holiday season, not to focus on self but to look up and around you and be thankful and grateful for so much we have been given.

Blessings!

April 15, 2009

gynecologic cancer awareness

A co-worker shared this with me and I want to share it with you.  It’s gynecologic cancer awareness time and since I have know many people close to me in my life that have dealt with different forms of cancer, I felt this was needed to be shared.  Visit:  www.mdanderson.org/Care_Centers/Gyn

MD Anderson Cancer Center is truly making cancer history here in Houston, Texas.  They have helped thousands of people with cancer of all sorts and types.  There are so many ways to help protect yourself and be aware of signs of cancer.  Ovarian cancer is the leading cause of death among gynecologic cancers, primarily because in approximately three-fourths of cases, it has already spread beyond the ovary at the time of diagnosis. 

Please be aware of the signs and get informed.

April 29, 2008

happy days

The weather is beautiful here in Houston.  We broke a record for how cold it was last night, which I don’t mind at all.  It was only like 50 something, but that’s cold for Tejas this time of year.  The temp now is like high 70’s and I’m LOVIN’ it!  It’s real nice having a convertible too when the weather is like this.  Just drop the top and go for a ride, kinda weather.

So, I have classes this week for work and it’s been an information overload as the typical classes go, but my company is an Acronym freak.  I guess that’s where I get my acrostic/acronym behavior from?!?!?!?!?!  I’m learning a lot and I also like not having to do REAL work while in class as well.  It’s nice and a change of pace too.

Me and the wifey are very excited as we have about 2 weeks until we go on vacation to Italy.  I’m so stoked and excited about it.  We have been wanting to do this since we got married 9 years ago.  It’s been a long vacation in the works for sure.  We never really had a huge vacation like this one ever and after the last 2 years of cancer hell, it’s gonna be worth the wait and the pain we went through.  I’m so glad that happy days are here again.

Have a Happy Day!

November 15, 2007

cancer

Angie is my Wonderful Wifey.  We’ve been married for almost 9 years now.  Like any couple we have our ups and downs, but the last couple of years have been very hard.  See, she/we(I say WE because we’re both in this together) got Breast Cancer and was diagnosed with it in November of 2005 at the ripe old age of 29!!!!

I wanted to blog about this and not so much about our marriage, so I’ll continue, but wanted you to know the mindset of what this is more about, Cancer Awareness and our dealing with this disease.

So, obviously this hit us like a ROCK!  She came down stairs one evening and asked me to feel something on her breast and I did.  It didn’t feel too good and was hard, like a pebble was lodged in her breast or something.  real weird feeling.  We immediately went to see her gynecologist the next day and found ourselves having a Ultrasound done within an hour of arriving at her gynecologist office.  It didn’t look good.  The following week she had a biopsy taken and then they told us that we wouldn’t hear anything for 2 weeks!!  I don’t know about you, but when someone tells you that you have to wait 2 weeks for life changing news, it feels like a lifetime.

Unfortunately, the oncologist told us that we should come in and talk with her.  We did that evening and heard the bad news that I would never wish upon my worst enemy….you have cancer.  She(the oncologist) went into the dynamics of the type of breast cancer she has and how it works and reacts, the size of it currently and the steps we need to take in order to battle it.  You know your speaking to an Oncologist when they use words like Battle and Attack.  It’s almost as if they had gone to boot camp in the army prior to completing their P.H.D.

Anyway, we began chemotherapy in January of 2006.  Angie got her concoction of medicine(s) to take on a monthly basis.  One of the medicines was called the “Red Devil”  This bad boy is what caused the hair to fall out, including making you bald.  So, before it fell out, we cut her beautiful long curly hair and donated it to the ‘Locks of Love’ foundation.  It was a big celebration and we made the most out of it.   

In order for Angie to receive the ‘concoction’, she had to get a Port-a-Cath in her upper chest, which required surgery.  not fun.  So, we had that surgery done, but the Dr. that performed the surgery didn’t do a good job and gave her a Port-a-Cath for a woman that was 300+ lbs and not one under 150.  So, a few weeks later, we went in for another surgery to get the ‘right’ one put in.  Isn’t that wonderful!

The chemo lasted until late May of 2006.  During that time, we purchased some very cute wigs for Angie, a blond wig and a cool brown with highlights one.  They both looked cute on her.  Soon after, we had to decide on the next surgery step.  Single or Bi-lateral Mastectomy.  We decided to go with the Bi-lateral one because it was the safer step, we thought that would prevent this damned disease from ever coming back Lord willing.  I believe in July of 2006 we had that major surgery done at MD Anderson, one of the best cancer centers in the world.  We are grateful to have such a great group of Doctors that practice their profession here in Houston.

Angie healed and recovered and stayed strong, where as I was in a sort of fog it seems at times.  She was going through it, but so was I and I felt every moment of it. 

We began the reconstruction phase in April of 2007 with another surgery.  This time it was expander’s that were put in to prepare for the ‘real ones’ to come.  We felt this was a better step towards recovery and putting all of this behind us.  In October of 2007 she got the ‘real ones’ put in to replace the expander’s and I love’em!!

Here we are now and recovering well.   She starts back to work tomorrow and I’m very thankful that things have turned out as well as can be expected.  We have had many people pray for us and share their life experiences with their family members and friends that have gone through similar situations as us and were thankful for that as well. 

Please help out with sharing wisdom with others about prevention and donating to research organizations such as the Susan G. Komen Foundation. 

October 12, 2007

My first Weblog

This is my first Posting as a webblogger on this site.  I have tried to blog and like doing it, but the time consumption and lack of remembering have gotten in my way in the past.  I’m now re-energized and going forward with enthusiasm to keep a current blog posting.  I am going to try a once a week posting on what’s happening in my life and keep the unacquainted hip.

Recently, my wife and I have been dealing with this thing called cancer.  I say recently but it’s going to be 2 years in November that we have been battling this dirty monster that seems to be so prevalent in our society.  I say prevalent, but it’s only because I really wasn’t aware of how many people are affected by cancer.  Once my eyes were opened because of my wife’s breast cancer, I began to talk with people(most of whom know a close friend or family member that has dealt with the disease) and it was like rampant it seems to me.  Millions of thoughts still go through my mind when i ponder on “why me, why us, why God, why now” and all the why’s you can think of.  I have had some time to think about cancer and all the ramifications(can i say that) of what it has done…like i said it’s been 2 years in couple weeks.  The most positive thing is that we/she beat it with God’s help and I truly believe the prayers of SOOOOO many.  Thank you all for your prayers as they are all coveted.  That word ‘coveted’ seems weird to use especially when it’s used in such a profane way so much of the time, but in this case I think it’s an OK word to use. 🙂

So, my wife is going to have surgery next Thursday and we are in the reconstruction phase and close to getting all of this behind us.  I’m very grateful for a lot of things and can say that we have learned so much going through this.  Our Faith was tested and tried and you know what…God is GOOD(all the time is your response 🙂   We have made it through this craziness of a whirlwind fighting cancer and now are looking to a bright future that includes fun times and lots of vacation plans to travel the world.

Back to the why’s.  I was hoping you’d ask.  Well, it’s hard to say that it’s a good or bad thing.  I do know that thinking on the ‘why’s’ tend to get you sad, bogged down and depressed.  But, there is a human aspect to all of the ‘why’s’ and I believe we all go through that phase and hopefully move past it.  I remember a good friend said once “why not me”  I know that there was Glory to be had and if through this some people were able to pray or draw closer to God because of what we went through then it was all worth it.  I truly believe that one day when I get to Heaven, I will know why and how many people were touched and blessed through what my strong, Awesome wife went through.  “Life is messy” as that same friend stated.  It so is and we all must go through it, right?